hi wasnt going to update but since i will be cutting down my comp usage for the next two weeks or so so pretty much my last entry for a while but who will notice its not like anyone reads my blog right? well no one tags me....anyway today was an ok day.well not quite i woke up early so i could finish homework which i was buried in. PE that stupid kevin go and splash so much water on me. splash a bit ok lah so much until my legs wet i was chasing him and i hit him i was really mad at him and he came up with some super lame thing. come to think of it he is kinda lame he laughs at things like sieow which frankly arent really that funny. ok maybe its the anger thats talking. well me and sieow ting got into an "argument" today well we just disagreed. it was about the seating arrangement and she wanted to put darus infront of the door how would ppl walk in well fixed it so she does not have to sit infront of the door. ayah Sieow Ting is my friend i dont want to get mad at her. kevin on the other hand he just doesnt want to be part of 3E2 so fine i could care less about ppl who r so unenthusiastic. went to buy bubble tea with jia en and saw sharina so jia en went home and i walked to the mrt station with sharina,long time since we walked home and talked together and had our 7-eleven lunches. wow she looks really tired. get some rests girl! sleep k dont deprive urself of that like i m depriving myself its really difficult to get through the day. Mr Glenn Tan asked me again on tuesday whether i was ok and when i heard this i for some reason felt like crying and was holding back my tears. i told him i was fine. he asked me because my english has not been up to my usual standard lately. "i dont noe lah but i am sensind a bit of a problem"tats waht he said. ayah i am a very bottled up person lah. anyway todays lesson he was soo funny wen i asked him"what is a verb,noun,adj ah" he was like "u of all ppl sumedhaa! how can u not noe" well i wasnt taught that way i was did my english like if it fits it fits! anyway Jeff Simnalingam didnt noe either so he taught us. MAN exams start TOMMOROW! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! im horrified! i have been staying up till 12 plus to study and waking up at 6. normally i sleep at 11.30 and wake up at 6.30 so can sleep enough now these past 4 days i have only had 18 hrs of slp. ok gonna go and study some more. im afraid that i cant make it through my exams maybe thats the problem i am facing,exam anxiety. ok gonna go this is my last post till exams are over Cheerios.

PS: i m really worried about michelle i mean i knew she used to cut herself but she is doing it so much now. i really dont want her to do it, why does she have to inflict pain on herself maybe i will never truly understand cause i dont do it but i really dont want her to hurt herslf if she is having a problem.

3:45 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi wasnt going to update but since i will be cutting down my comp usage for the next two weeks or so so pretty much my last entry for a while but who will notice its not like anyone reads my blog right? well no one tags me....anyway today was an ok day.well not quite i woke up early so i could finish homework which i was buried in. PE that stupid kevin go and splash so much water on me. splash a bit ok lah so much until my legs wet i was chasing him and i hit him i was really mad at him and he came up with some super lame thing. come to think of it he is kinda lame he laughs at things like sieow which frankly arent really that funny. ok maybe its the anger thats talking. well me and sieow ting got into an "argument" today well we just disagreed. it was about the seating arrangement and she wanted to put darus infront of the door how would ppl walk in well fixed it so she does not have to sit infront of the door. ayah Sieow Ting is my friend i dont want to get mad at her. kevin on the other hand he just doesnt want to be part of 3E2 so fine i could care less about ppl who r so unenthusiastic. went to buy bubble tea with jia en and saw sharina so jia en went home and i walked to the mrt station with sharina,long time since we walked home and talked together and had our 7-eleven lunches. wow she looks really tired. get some rests girl! sleep k dont deprive urself of that like i m depriving myself its really difficult to get through the day. Mr Glenn Tan asked me again on tuesday whether i was ok and when i heard this i for some reason felt like crying and was holding back my tears. i told him i was fine. he asked me because my english has not been up to my usual standard lately. "i dont noe lah but i am sensind a bit of a problem"tats waht he said. ayah i am a very bottled up person lah. anyway todays lesson he was soo funny wen i asked him"what is a verb,noun,adj ah" he was like "u of all ppl sumedhaa! how can u not noe" well i wasnt taught that way i was did my english like if it fits it fits! anyway Jeff Simnalingam didnt noe either so he taught us. MAN exams start TOMMOROW! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! im horrified! i have been staying up till 12 plus to study and waking up at 6. normally i sleep at 11.30 and wake up at 6.30 so can sleep enough now these past 4 days i have only had 18 hrs of slp. ok gonna go and study some more. im afraid that i cant make it through my exams maybe thats the problem i am facing,exam anxiety. ok gonna go this is my last post till exams are over Cheerios.

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wow three wks of not going to fencing has its consequences. i completely sucked today man! i didnt fence the way i usually did and lost like 3 times! man i got to start practising at home or im really gonna get bad.Natasha cut her today i didnt talk to her though she didnt either i wonder why? maybe she forgot my face after not seeing it for 3 wks? who noes. i still havent beaten Ruge at fencing yet today lost to him 2-5. Then i had to come on my own. 1 hr. Oh i am cutting my handphone line tommorow so dont sms me till i give u my new no. i hope to get a new phone and my bro cannot steal it cause he told me tat he gets the phone fine if he does i will choose a very awful phone so he can suffer pls its my line i should get the phone plus hes in NS so they get allowance so he should have enough money to get his own right for goodness sake hes 21 next month! i m fighting for it. ok studied a bit this weekand so ok. im tired my feet r tired from fencing so taking a break then wash up and study some more. i will change my blogskin after exams wen i dont feel so lazy. k gotta go Cheerio!

2:51 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi i know i should be studying now but i am so tired and sleepy that i noe nothing will go into my head so why bother. Anyway today was a long day Had school till 12.45(physics teacher extemded) the went to have lunch with juline and went to uncle yap and bought some sweets and stuff. Then we made our way back to school and assembled at the foyer and went to the science centre for our DNA Course. it was great! i really enjoyed it and in the end Mr Joe was actually not the culprit thanks to our new found DNA profiling skills. Then made our way back to school. poor ashraf was being bullied by nina in the bus but it was sooo funny. We reached school at about 5.30 plus then rushed home took my Violin and went for Violin Class. wah no one else came today and in the end i had my lesson all alone and they changed our room we now use the guitar rm instead of violin(wat kind of logic is tat?). Then came hm took a bath had dinner and played with Anushka my darling oh but was mostly carrying Ronan around because he was all grumpy and wouldnt stay down. tomm is another long day. wah i think i m used to it lah but i seriously feel like my battery is running out it is very low. On Tuesday Mr Glenn Tan asked me "Are u ok? u acting so weird this past two days? tired ah?" and alot of ppl are asking me if i feel stressed. why am i acting weird or something do i seem stressed? tell me i wanna noe. well ok i m gonna go sleep cant keep my eyes open long enough to watch Survivor so nvm, Gd Night Cheerio

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i just love this song soo meaningful

3:13 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi updating for Sharinas sake again. ok i kinda just argued with my bro over the comp cause i wanted to use and he turned on the comp first and i said "didnt u use the comp this afternoon u r always using the comp u use for soo long" and he was like "ya i spend the entire wk at camp and dont use it then" is that the only excuse guys can come up with they're at camp? seriously it annoys me. well anyway he used then after like half hour plus he was like " u can use u noe" so ok now i m using the comp. i think he felt guilty but now i m feeling guilty ok so iwont make this long and i will give it back to my bro. ok today is my dad's bday. happy 54th bday! we went out for lunch and then we all went for a movie at the cathay. this woman there spoilt my mood annoyed me. crazy! anyway guess wat i lost weight! 2 kg. my family kept asking me if i had lost weight. im happy about it. ok tomm got e-maths test so gonna go now cheerio

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well i m finally free with the fact that the debate ended today. and guess what we won! oh yeah one free GV movie ticket for me. i actually thought we had lost since Syukri got the best speaker prize(i think he was the only one who spoke clearly and slowly). Kenny was so funny with his speech my god he made me jump in my seat on stage "is it worthwhile? the answer is YES! " wah evryone was laughing. After the debate Stephanie was like "if there was a funniest speaker kenny would definately win" he was really funny. Everyone was making fun of him. Oh today i met Sharina's BF finally. Hes really nice he didnt say much he seemed so shy but he did say a few things nvm warming up i guess. he was like "so the two of u have been best friends since sec2" and we were like " yeah something like that" haha well sharina's my most trusted frend(Juline too of course) and i will always stand up for them. so yeah i guess they r my best friends cause i have nvr felt closer to any other frends b4.Primary school was filled with alot of B****y girls who i could care less about now. Saw Marziya's parents in the train i was so shocked i was wondering ho that women smiling at me was. haha ok im still trying to lure ppl into tkd so if anyone wants to join tell me i will be more than happy to get u in. It would be so cool if we could go to Korea to train in tkd right the birthplace of tkd.
pk gonna go now cheerio=)

PS: i think high five is really interesting and i wouldnt mind joining it but i really dont have the time this yr.

1:27 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

Arts Night is ovvvverrr! woohoo! im happy and sad at the same time. Backstage was a real party. The two clowns Hong Ling and Sharina were standing backstage and singing and dancing and providng the entertainment it was so fun. they changed mine and syukri's lines, we had to introduce Sheena shes really sweet. I think everyone from everyone cca that participated in the concert became close to each other. we encoraged each other. This choir guy who i didnt even know saw me kinda standing and getting ready for my skit and he smiled, patted my shoulder and said gd luck. so nice, we all had loads of fun. i wouldnt mind doing it all over again. Congratulations to Ashraf on winning Talent Quest. everyone was screaming backstage and clapping for him. my mike was loose so it didnt pick up my voice so i just had to project. overall we hada gd show. i cant go for fencing cause i did something to my shoulder and i cant put it down.
My family is enough to make me go crazy.
My baby cousin Ronan is sitting on my lap while im doing this so it is very diff hes drooling all over my hand so im gonna go before he starts crying, cheerio!

12:13 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

Arts Night was a hit! well i hope it was. ppl were laughing at our skit. that shows that it was gd. thanks to denes dancing too haha. we came up with sucha creative idea for the rose that mrs leong gave us. there was a part where syukri said something about being positive and i handed him the rose which he handed to denes who pushed it away. oh my poor rose. i think denes,ashraf,syukri and me make quite a gd team dont u think? we r like the only ones who kept practising and practising. im srry if i made ppl angry by saying " I need to be left alone to get into character i dont want ppl to tell me this and that"i was really frustrated that the teacher was making me walk up and down in that stupid little room and i was pretty muchlosing my temper and i was forcing it in and while doing that iwas almost crying. so i really just needed ppl to get off my back and i went into the toilet to just kinda calm myself. maybe thats why i had a fed up look on my face. plus the whole day did not start out well with me firstly because of the debate thing and then my mom told me what my grandpa was saying and that had to add to the whole frustration(it was nt gd wat my grandpa said he doesnt say much nice stuff after his stroke). And my baby Cousin Ronan decided that he was going to be cranky today so i had to carry him around. I didnt get to see Anushka either. So the whole day was just a big mess for me so i was really frustrated and i needed to be left to be for a while so i hope u understand.Jean was very proud of me unfourtunately i didnt get to see her.I missed the actors bus yesterday wah they left without me. in the end i had to go with the choir and backstage crew and mr tan. I saw Kim Hock but he just stared at me and walk away. for a person who constantly smses me he can still not talk to me fine doesnt bother me. Oh Ashraf did u noe that ur mother was sitting next to my mother. my mom told me "tat boy playing the punk his mother was sitting next to me." i think they spoke to each other. today is Arts Night Part 2 must be in school by 4.30pm. After this all this will be over thank god then i can concentrate on my mid-yr exams.

(i bottle up my feelings so i dont tell ppl so when i lose my temper and i try to push it in it is very difficult and i almost have tears coming out which i try to push in as well)

PS: i have to train my juniors for the fire skit. fine as long as i dont have to act in the fire skit i think i have had enough dramas for a while. i need a break

9:07 PM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi updating for sharina's sake. ok went for my tkd grading today. wah tat stupid grader so difficult to please man! i think he pissed everyone off especially Fauzan i mean he didnt do anything wrong. not happy say not happy lah! ayah! got kicked in the foot twice now it hurts like hell really sharp pain. well its no secret about me and Kim Hock. the first ppl i told were Sharina and Juline my most trusted darling pals. wah im so busy right now here wat i have going on including tkd grading:
1) tkd grading
2) battlefieldguide presentation
3) arts night
4) debate
5) exams
6) tkd pattern tournament
i actually feel a fever coming on. but i must strive on and push myself to make it for arts night worked soo hard for it. i am thinking about waht to do for my hair on arts night wanna look nice any suggestion nothing permanent. ok have to go do debate,reflection and hw.as if i dont already have enough on my hands. cheerio
PS: i dont think i am interested in Kim Hock anymore but how to tell him?

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