hi just went out with soleha my primary school friend. wah we still have alot in common. quite nice. to get away from home for a while yesterday i went to watch cheaper by the dozen 2 with my cousin. ayah my mother ah? i m giving up any hope of possibly having a nice relationship with. its not like we fight or anything but do u noe wat it is like to wake up and feel all alone because u feel ur mother does not bother and even though i have become this hard outer shell no one really noes how i feel inside no one. i mean i listen to my frens all the time about their problems and stuff but i cant tell them and they dont noe either how i feel inside. i may be this strong exterior but the inside may not be very strong. cant take sometimes just makes me wanna cry that i cant even trust someone with my problems for once that i cant even open up. i just started feeling worse sitting at this comp and something is prompting me to just write this i dont feel bad but just wanted to get this out.

3:36 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

so the curse of the failed movie plans continues. yes we did not go for our movie today because she had to go visit an aunt.its almost like we are not supposed to watch the movie together or something.so did my usual sunday stuff wake up early go for tamil tution aand come back,but today was a bit different also no fencing so sad practically decaying already. and anushka's staying the night.
well right now i would like to address something that has truly been bothering me since school started. well now i understand that this year the classes have been changed around and people are sad that they have to leave their old classes. believe me i m sad too if i could go back to 2e2 i would. but we r no longer in those classes. but that does not annoy me that u r sad about tat i m fine with that,wat annoys me is how hostile some of the new classmates are. instead of trying to embrace their new class they decide that they r going to sore thumbs and not be happy or try to be happy. not to point ppl out but especially the former 2E1 students u guys always go on about how united u guys were, where is that attitude now? why arent u trying to be united with ur new class.where is the "one for all, all for one" attitude for the new class. now i m not saying to bash former classes or anything but i have noticed a few sour grapes in my class th at i cant stand anymore. Take ur hostility elswhere where no one can see it! u sourness is not wanted i certainly dont want it and if ur want to harbour such unappreciated feelings i dont even wanna noe u.
one valuabe thing i learnt at last year's kluang student leadership camp is to have no regrets in the decisions u make and if u chose the class and u got it dont fuss about it and definately dont regret it.

5:42 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi didnt wanna posts but wat the heck! i always say that=) anyway my class has had a real rough week. we had wat the sec 3s called a "fever outbreak" or as royston called it H4 N4 haha(silly guy). well the other sec 3 express class had it to but my class was the worse hit. on monday 13 ppl did not come to school cause they were down with fevers. then on tuesday 19 ppl! did not come to school!(note my class has 37 students). fever outbreak indeed. well on tuesday with so little ppl in class it was kinda nice but kinda dull as well. during that day i also started to not feel so well. jessica said i was paranoid because knew so many ppl were sick guess she was wrong. mr ali came into the class and looking at the number of ppl said"ok we will wait for the rest of the class to come back" uh we were the rest of the class. that was funny. and lo and behold on wednesday i really did become a bit more sick. but i went for tkd and all tat. but i have lost my appetite to eat. on thursday i was really quite bad. i was coughing real bad. so i decided not to push it and not go for pe. but i did not have the infamous medical certificate so miss ang was all pissed+ only 7 ppl went for pe. so she made the ones who did not have an mc(really the ones who were fighting of the fevers but were still sick and still came to school) walk 40 rounds! around the basketball court. i was angry if i am to be honest.but cant blame her completly. and after that long walk i felt even worse and almost wanted to go home. but i was determined to finish the week by coming everyday and not giving in to the fever and i did it! my temperature was 38.2.well i will be going out with sharina on sunday to watch cheaper by the dozen 2. i want to make this outing happen cause we never make it for the movies that we plan for! well gotta go see yas

3:57 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way, they show that they wish
That they had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Cos people are all the same(The same, the same)
And we only get judged by what we do(What we do, yeah, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then(Yeah, you)
So are you
So are you

People are all the same(Oh, oh, oh)
And we only get judged by what we do(What we do, yeah)
Personality reflects nameAnd if I'm ugly then(Yeah, so are you)
So are you
So are you

5:29 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi didnt really wanna update but nvm just do it. yesterday i went to pick up anushka from her kindergarten bus. thats rite u heard me Kindergaten for a 2 year old!do ppl have brains or did they just flush it down the toilet by mistake, u dont noe how sad anushka must feel and dont u dare tell me i m wrong mister cause sending a 2 year old to school is complete bogussness its crap! and i m gonna stand up for my baby cause i will always support her not u!so wat if its playschool?! anyway tomm i have fencing julianna asked me to think about where i want to go with fencing is this just a casual thing or do i want to turn competitive i actually was thinking going competitive would be a gd idea but i was thinking maybe i should wait till my o-levels are over. i dont noe. i really miss samantha why does her mother have to be so fussy about the fees sure it is not fair tat u paid for lessons tat smantha did not go for but u cant expect julianna to pay u back she cant do tat with all the practice bookings that we do. i really miss her but cant do anything can i?

10:22 PM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi today i went for my novices 2006 competition, i mangaed to get into round 2 after securing 1 win and having 14 points taken. then i had to fence liane wong a lefty wow i had actually beaten before but i did not win this time and because it was a direct elimination round i was out. but it didnt sadden me sure i was dissapointed and all but i got over it. but the competition got delayed and the mens eepee only started at 3 instead of 2 and the womens foil only started at 4 i was there was 6hrs from 2-8pm. tiring but other than some bisters under my feet i am fine anyway i have tkd grading tomm so i have to go sleep bye

6:55 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

i actually did not want to update but i thought wat the hell rite. tomm is a public holiday and i can sleep longer anyway today chiok weh has that campus superstar thing and i wish him luck. he told me before he left"you watch and vote for me ok?" i will watch if i can lah but voting is another thing expensive u noe but i will support him lah hes my classmate afterall rite? today i had history and i managed to sit next to sharina. we also had chemistry which almost put me to sleep literally. it was as if she was talking to herself! i actually cant wait for mrs ho to come back from her maternity leave so we can have a proper lesson. i m not critisising the teacher its just tat her teaching style is sooo diff. i have a fencing competetion on saturday"Novices 2006" we had a practice competition and i came in six thanx to my 3 victories especially to tat girl who was beating everyone even the more experianced ones. i think i found her weakness but i shall not say anything just yet but she is a strong competitor. have tkd grading on sunday so can't wait for tat i will be a brown belter after tat so cool! then 6 more months and i will get my black belt! well i m going now going to catch up on some beauty sleep tata!

12:35 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi school today was ok. i feel very uncomfortable in mrs shanmugavalli's class but i cant do anything i guess she just doesnt have the approachability that mr murugan has. i mean i have to do this tamil essay and she want fancy words in it she said"i don't award high marks for simple essays" i cant do fancy tamil essays and mr murugan has told her that i can only start by doing simple essays, give me a few months and i will attempt and today she asked me to tell her the story and i kept quiet because i didnt exactly noe how to say it. she asked me if i understood and i said yes but i said it like i was reading a book with proper tamil and not spoken tamil, i mean thats the only way i noe how to say it! and she kinda mocks it. i mean i dont noe spoken tamil very well. guess i just have to get used to her if she is willing to help me and can help me she will gain all of my respect even if she screams at me but i cant promise otherwise. i m willing to go for any lesson after school if it helps me in my tamil. i might even repay her by being involved in the deeparaya celebrations at the end of the year teehee=) hey but i'm serious ok if she helps me i will help her. gotta go do her essay now bye
Sumedhaa

3:17 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi i havent posted in a long time and i thought since todays the first day of school why not.yes today was the first day back to school and it was well ok. we went to school and got our first look at the new sec1 students and their nervous faces haha give them a week or 2 and they will start to feel comfortable. anyway this saturday is the orientation for sec 1s and i have my taekowando performance which is the defensive techniques and breaking boards, i dont noe about drama just as yet i'll find out soon enough. today i met my form teacher(Mr Ali) and my mother toungue teacher and my english teacher and my chemistry teacher. oh and my new classmates too! its so sad tat me and juline and sharina and now in differant classes,guess i have to get used to it. so im sitting next to kelly and hafizan has already deemed me 'Afro Girl' but i dont care its just kinda irritating sometimes"oh call afro girl! hey Afro girl" stupid urkel well the whole day was kind of a bore but it was ok. i m really happy i can go for the orientation, i hope i can go for grading also because i have my novices championship on tat day. well talk some other time
Sumedhaa

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