hi i just finished my first performance for el wk tomm is performance no.2. haha ppl were laughing at tong yang in his weird clothes and funny character man he was so much better today. mr tan said i was gd at getting the ppls attention ok. i asked kim hock how the performance was and he was like "i dont noe how to write u call me" (oh ya i smsed him) well i did not want to waste money calling him so we just continued smsing cause he was bored at choir. how was he bored at choir? ayah anyway he was just keep smsing lah. then he was like "break time lah call me i very bored" i still dont want to waste money so i said i have tution. small white lie but can talk to him tomm wat nvm. haha i got his e-mail so i dont need to waste my smses . haha i m in the 200 range man dont want to increase. haha ok gonna go do work now cheerio.

12:29 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi went out with juline and sharina today. man it was the most fun i have had in a really long time. its so great to hang out with my two fabulous friends again.i bought my art night clothes finally. with the help of the two of them of course. we were like walking around os so long. bought my skirt before lunch then we went to mcdonalds to eat. then walk around somemore juline bought her gift for jesslyn at more than words. quite cute. then i went to buy my top my god the clothes at This Fashion is so much cheaoer we should have gone there in the first plac then maybe i could have bought my beutiful dress that i saw. sharina was look drooling over this one dress haha. i realised that i have different taste in clothes from Juline and Sharina but tats fine we still managed to find something tat i agreed on. it looks nice together btw sharina i tried. we then went to starbucks where we shared some rasberry thing. then we went to carrefour so juline could get her wrapping paper. sharina was so funny there when she saw tat couple haha we laugh like crazy ppl! hehe it was really a great day. i will only have fun like this with my two greatest friends ever. well i m going to do hw now cheerio.

3:20 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

Man i was told something i did not want to hear to day man! aaahh im so sad right now. Nina got the same thing but shes been in it b4. wahhh first time in my life! ok enough of drama ya its quite dissapointing lah but ayah just go and finish it off and make sure i dont have to go again. i have Nina she seemed fine with it but first time for me. my grandma just asked me my marks my god i had been trying to keep it from her but she asked so had to tell her. i hate dissapointing my grandma she is the most special person in my life! anyway school today was nice back to school of course but quite fun. eng lesson was interesting then we went for tat home team exhibition. wen mr kwok told us home team was coming i thought he was talking about the S-League soccer team. HAHA i m so dumb. anyway going out on saturday to buy clothes for arts night(mine and syukris lines are sooo funny). i m going with sharina and maybe juline. i asked her today and she said she'll try but should be okay. so it will be the three of us again together. i still remember last yr the stuff we used to do sharina telling her lollipop joke, juline sitting there all serious but then would break out into a laugh, me telling sharina that i dont like hilary duff and she getting angry, haha. wah i miss last yr i miss 2E2. this is not a light thing but juline and sharina u guys i honestly really trusted, and this is something very rare i didnt usually trust my friends so much b4 and so no matter wat happened i always trusted u and i always will. its quite big cause i feel tat i can trust u and somehow u guys relate to me better than almost anyone else. ok well i m going to go get ready for my tamil tution now.
PS: jessica went to toa payoh with kelly to buy her Fort Minor CD. tao payoh the cds cheap meh?

12:28 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi went for rehersal today wah funny man. our skits are soo creative. anyway i am really contemplating on wheater i should go for my tkd grading or not. i mean it is on April 2 and i am not so prepared. right now only me,leo and fauzan are going for grading the others are not sure and i anyway cant take my name back cause i already paid for it. ayah dont noe lah just give it my best i have been waiting for my black belt for sooo long and passing my brown belt will be a step closer. oh michelle cant make it tomm cause her grandma wont allow it so guess i might just go with my cousin but she wants to eat lunch outside. i m not too keen cause i have been eating outside for 2 days already see first. i m waiting for my mom to do physics with me but she is watching amazing race. ayah. my brother is going for the Jason Mraz concert tomm. how unfair! i wanna go but he gets to go for it and hes been going on about it for soo long and he is going for it tomm. man it is a sold out concert how i wish i could go see Jason Mraz i like his music, his style is so nice. ok gonna go now cause i have nothing left to say.

6:31 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

waah Stress ah! i have to learn 7 tkd belts for grading,remember lines for el wk,act for arts night and also do hw! wah ok nvm. anyway congrats to the scrabble team for winning all their games at the competition. so gd. oh i am going for a movie with juline and michelle on friday give up asking sharina. well i did ask her but she cant make it. SUPRISE SURPRISE. ok hehe i dont have much to say actually so toodles.
PS: i m going to make an effort to get along with all my classmates even though i may not like them i will try to like them

1:14 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi showed my father my progress card today. i noe wat ur thinking aaah! but it actually went better than i thought. Way better. of course therewere a few remarks. i went ot the beach with my parents,Anushka and my grandpa today. i actually didnt want to go but did ihave a choice. quite unfair u noe my mom told me dont go out to watch a movie with a friend but must go out with her. really hypocritical isnt it. i saw some school guys over there kinda a having a gahthering sort of thing, looked like they were having fun i was so tempted to join them but of course cannot lah, i dont even noe them and my parents were there. Anushka was in a really bad mood today. wah that little girl kept shouting at me thinking i will be scared like her little brother, anushka darling u r 2 i m 14 i am 12 yrs older than u i wont be scared. nvm shes sleeping now. anyway have fencing tomm dont noe wheather my legs will move properly or not still recovering from camp. but i want to fence Natasha i wanna try and beat her this week hopefully can. oh right Ruge as well but hes somewhere on the list it will take time to beat him. but hes a sweet guy. ok have tamil tution tomm and i havent done hw so gonna do it now see ya.

6:01 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi just came back from camp. it was nice though i m aching all over from carrying heavy objects like the kayak and joseph. hehe but seriously i think he should lose weight. we 4 girls push him over the wall, group six was cheering after that from the rope area they better be it was a real accomplishment 4 group 5 cause we pushed and pulled him up man after tat i could even pull myself up. we went 4 kayaking in the morning i partnered with syukri we really were racing pretty much gliding over the water very nice i want to go again. i did not get to go rock climbing cause i had to support by then no more time already. nvm the campfire was ok. nothing special. the second day i shared my sleeping bag wit sharina cause she did not have and mine can open up and share for 2 ppl so share wit her. overall the camp was ok lah. the trainers there are really young i mean my trainer is only 19 yrs old and the others alot are below 20 yrs old maybe thats why they were so lively so young mah. gonna go and do stuff cheerios.

4:35 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi went for kelly's party yesterday night only left there at about 11. the others left at about 10.45 because they relised they had to go home before 11 if not the police will be out and if they find teenagers loitering they will be reprimanded so all of them were rushing home. but before that i met rafi at toa payoh at about 7.15 and my god we waited for michelle for like an hour! by that time we saw denes,munir and syukri. munir had some weird hairstyle that did not suit his head. but we lef and went to take the bus there and we missed the bus stop so got off at the next one and walked back to the place. met kenny,jeffrey,li xiao and james outside the condominium. they told us they did not noe how to go in. how difficult isit to walk in? hehe nvm. not many ppl there. met kelly saw her little sister my god she is so cute! chiok weh was trying desperately to get her to come to him. he keep opening his arms but she would run away. my parents picked me up cause they said it was too late for me to go home on my own. wah. anyway i want to go for chiok weh party today, i heard it will be alot more happening but my mom said no.ayah and his home is so near mine i can walk there. nvm he said try but i cant srry. anyway happy birthday Chiok Weh have a great party i cant go boohoo. will wish kelly when her bday comes on wednesday gtta go now bye

PS: even though this may seem like a happy entry i am still very very very sad just trying to supress it.

10:32 PM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

hi...there's nothing happy about this update at all. im such a failure well thats how i feel right now. i didnt just fail 1 subject i failed 5 subjects. yes shocking isnt it sumedhaa can fail 5 subjects. i hate myself right now i feel so depressed i am literally pushing the tears back i just wanna cry but those who noe me noe that i will never cry openly i always cry on the inside on when i noe ppl wont see me. i now am looking forward to my sec3 camp i need to clear my mind badly. havent even told my mom my chemistry and history grades which i both failed as well. here are the grades of a failure:
Eng 34/50 (1st time getting B 4 eng nvr got anything blow an A b4)
E-maths 21/35
A-maths 22/30
chem 15/40
phy 18.5/40
hist 9/24
ss 7/25
mt 13/50(as usual)

after 2day i really dont feel like going for kelly's party but i already promised her so have to. im gonna go and try and cry my eyes out now i need to cry or i will explode. ppl also noe i m not a very open person and it is very difficult 4 me 2 open up to ppl.

9:47 PM; OOPS, I spoke again Y

Freeedooom! well kinda. The CAs are officially over. woohoo! but theres a down side i failed my tamil AGAIN! ARRRRAGH worse than before 13/50. havent told my mom yet gonna tell her tomm cause got school the whole day so wont see her the whole day perceft time i pray. anyway i just got a letter from my old primary school something about joining the stamford alumni basically calling back all the old stamfordians to help with the primary school u noe wat im talking about right? all the old secondary school students coming back to school to help and all that should i join? tell me tag me k? really dont noe i wouldnt mind but im in sec3 am very busy u noe. see first lah. have drama tomm havent memerised my script yet will do tomm but i still have A-maths and mother toungue hw to do. Wah Chiok Weh i tell u can be a real pain sometimes u noe. nvm Kelly's Bday party is on friday i promised her i would come but i not very keen on missing violin lesson but i promised her already. must get her gift no time to anyone wanna go with me to get her something? well gotta go do my work

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