hi just went out with soleha my primary school friend. wah we still have alot in common. quite nice. to get away from home for a while yesterday i went to watch cheaper by the dozen 2 with my cousin. ayah my mother ah? i m giving up any hope of possibly having a nice relationship with. its not like we fight or anything but do u noe wat it is like to wake up and feel all alone because u feel ur mother does not bother and even though i have become this hard outer shell no one really noes how i feel inside no one. i mean i listen to my frens all the time about their problems and stuff but i cant tell them and they dont noe either how i feel inside. i may be this strong exterior but the inside may not be very strong. cant take sometimes just makes me wanna cry that i cant even trust someone with my problems for once that i cant even open up. i just started feeling worse sitting at this comp and something is prompting me to just write this i dont feel bad but just wanted to get this out.

3:36 AM; OOPS, I spoke again Y